Baby showers. Kill me now.

Ahhh...the dreaded baby shower invite situation arrived today. I hope she can understand the message I sent to her as to why I will not be able to attend. I did the best I could muster up. I wrote something along the lines of "I really love you guys, and your friendship means a lot to me. But right now I'm going through an incrediably difficult time, and it's hard for me to be around pregnant women or new babies. Please be patient with me while I go through this." I also made it clear that Jeff and I would love to send her a baby gift at least. I certainly don't expect fertile women to understand my unending pain, nor for the world to stop for me. But goddammit!! This sucks.